Kinsley, Kanses,
January 8, 1941.

Mr. Forrest C. Allen :
Director Of Physical Education
University of Kensas

Dear Mr. Allen,

I just received your letters and copy of letter sent to
Miss Katherine Menn. I appreciete your directness in this matter.

On Jenuary 7, I received word from Miss Menn informing me
that the amount esked for hed been granted. But before this reply
ceme to me, I had planned to refuse the offer. I have not been
able to carry out any of my plans that would meke returning to
school the joy and opportunity it would necesserily have to be for
me if I were to produce work and have the interest and whole-heart-=
ed enthusiasm that Imust produce in order to finish on schedule
and with the full recommendetion of my superiors which is so abso-=
lutely essential to getting a job.

My disappointment is too keen to mention just now nor cen
I bleme you for feeling as you do. Certainly you have every right
to completely distrust me and I regret that very much. Although
my friends and acquaintances here who made the loan possible knew
nothing of the eccounts I have at Lawrence, I gave them a figure
representing the total of my indebtedness and my solemn promise
that unless this sum was erased , I would not consider going shead
and trying to re-enter schoole

Though I laid my plens cerefully end budgeted every penny of
my smell monthly income so that I could clear everything, I could
not forsee that my brother and his wife and babyywould be thrown out
of work and would so irresponsibl@Sis as to come home to mother and
myself for support. Had there been any way out, I would have rebel-
led, but duty compélled me to do the only white thing for the seke
of my mother and their tiny beby. Also my father whose mind hes
been crippled by long physical illmess, suddenly decided to leave
right after I made application for the loen. He drews a pension for
unemployed unemployable veterans to the amount of $30.00 a month.
This of course isn't much but would have meant everything to mee
If I could only have had the last three months checks free as planned
a11 of my problems would heve been solved, but things have turned out
badly. I em sorry to have troubled you and thank you egain for your

kindnesse
a. ss

IRENE MCADOO