CALENDAR
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thursday, april 15th
THEOLOGY ONTAP
Henny's on Eighth,
5:30 p.m., free, all ages
THE JUNKYARD JAZZ BAND
The American Legion 7 p.m., free, all ages
KU SAXOPHONE
QUARTETS
The Swarthout Recital Hall, 7:30 p.m., free,
all ages
"BLITHESPIRIT"
The Lawrence
Community Theatre,
7:30 p.m., $14-$20,
all ages
"FROM HEPCAT TO
"FROM HEPCAT TO REBEL TO HEROIN FIEND: THE JAZZ TROPE IN THE POPULAR IMAGINATION"
Spooner Hall, The Commons, 7.30 p.m., free, all ages
friday,april 16th
BINGO
The Eagles Lodge, 7 p.m., free, all ages
HIGH WATER STRING
BAND
The Gaslight Tavern,
7 p.m., 21+
FESTIVAL OF NATIONS
The Kansas Union, 7 p.m., free, all ages
KU TRUMPFT
ENSEMBLE
The Swarthout Recital Hall,
7:30 p.m., all ages
"BLITHE SPIRIT"
The Lawrence
Community Theatre,
7:30 p.m., $14-$20,
all ages
saturday, april 17th
The Granada, 9 p.m., $15.18+
PNUMA TRIO
GRISLY HAND/
COYOTE TEETH
The Gaslight Tavern,
7 p.m., 21+
"BLITHE SPIRIT"
The Lawrence Community Theatre,
7:30 p.m., $14-$20,
all ages
STEVE KAUFMAN
Mass. St. Music,
7:30 p.m., $15, all
ages
"THE HOUSE OF
The Lawrence Arts Center, 7:30 p.m., free, 17+
ATREUS"
OPEN JAM
sunday, april 18th
Duffy's, 9 p.m., free,
21+
The Jazzhaus,
10 p.m., $5, 21+
TRUE NORTH
THE CALAMITY CUBES/
LYDIA LOVELESS/
ADAM LEE AND THE
DEAD HORSE SOUND
CO.
The Replay Lounge,
6 p.m., $3, 21+
SMASHDOWN!
The Bottleneck,
7:30 p.m., free,$5,
18+
venues //
The Bottleneck 737 New Hampshire St.
The Jackpot Music Hall 943 Massachusetts St.
monday, april 19th
The Jazzhaus 926 1/2 Massachusetts St.
The Replay Lounge 946 Massachusetts St.
FACULTY RECITAL
SERIES: ED LAUT,
CELLO
The Eighth St. Taproom 801 New Hampshire St.
Lawrence Arts Center 940 New Hampshire St.
The Swarthout Recital Hall,
7:30 p.m., free, all ages
TELLER'S FAMILY
NIGHT
NIGHT
Teller's, 8 p.m., free,
18+
The Granada 1020 Massachusetts St.
The Pool Room 925 Iowa St.
Wilde's Chateau 24
2412 Iowa St.
Duffy's 2222 W. 6th St.
Conroy's Pub 3115 W.6th St., Ste.D
The Bottleneck 737 New Hampshire St.
tuesday, april 13th
BLUES TUESDAY WITH
BRYAN NEUBERRY
The Gaslight Tavern, 7 p.m.,free,18+
LECTURE BY
FILMMAKER KEVIN
WILMOTT
Woodruff Auditorium,
7:30 p.m., free, all
ages
TUESDAY NITE SWING
The Kansas Union, 8 p.m., free, all ages
SCARY LARRY KANSAS
BIKE POLO
Veterans Park, 8
p.m., free, all ages
BRAINVILLE TRIVIA
Johnny's Tavern West, 8 p.m., free, all ages
SHPONGLE/
PROMETHEUS
The Granada, 9 p.m.
$20, all ages
wednesday, april 14th
BILLY SPEARS
& BEER BELLIES
Johnny's Tavern,
6 p.m., free, 21+
"BIG NIGHT"
DINNER AND A MOVIE:
LIVE ACTION PUB
BIG NURT
Pachamama's,
6 p.m., $25, all ages
TRIVIA SHOW
Conroy's Pub, 7 p.m.,
$5, 21+
PEACE CORPS
PEACE CORPS
INFORMATION
MEETING
The Lawrence Public Library, 7 p.m., free,
all ages
THE AMERICANA
MUSIC ACADEMY JAM
ADAM LABELL DAM
Signs of Life,
7.30 p.m., free, all
ages
PRIDENIGHT
Wilde's Chateau 24,
9 p.m., $5, 18+
editor's note //
My hand shook as I filled out the paperwork on the translucent, neon green clipboard. Upon completion, I sat in nervous anticipation, scouting out the other patrons in the building. I wondered why they were here. Im sure they wondered why I, a 21-year-old college student, would be sitting on the same stiff waiting room chairs in the Lincoln Pediatric Group's family therapy office.
It had been 15 years since I had last been in that office. With every turn of a door handle my heart stopped. I didn't know if I would remember the man who documented my words and progress before I even entered kindergarten.
They didn't know that I'd been here before. I had been in one-hour sessions twice a week from age 3 to 6, dealing with the repercussions of a childhood trauma.
I saw him before he saw me. His hair had a few more shades of grey and he had a gap between his teeth I didn't recall, but his laugh and big kid- at heart dermican or was ceryl familiar. He was the
same Dr. George I had played tiddlywinks with on the carpet, and who made coins disappear behind my ear. It had all really happened. I thought.
His office seemed completely different and larger than I remembered, but one detail struck me. Sitting on top of the wide desk amidst patient files and miscellaneous scraps of paper was a green glass baton. I was obsessed with it as a little girl. Id run it through my fingers, sending a rush of navy and purple half-moon and star sequins from one end to the other. He smiled at my recognition, and handed it to me.
I glanced above the chair where he was sitting, noting the numerous certificates and diplomas framed neatly in rows, and held it together through the introductory small talk. "How's school going? How's your mom? What's your major?" But when he asked me "What's going on?" I fell apart.
I had left the "reason for appointment" space blank on the paperwork, not quite knowing how to say why I was here, but knowing that I needed to be. It had taken a year and a half to schedule the session. I saw it as a sign of weakness and defeat. I thought I could handle things on my own. But the disappointment, rejection and insecurity that mounted after freshman year of college weighed me down like gravity. I finally admitted to needing help.
I calculated my answers carefully as I gave him the short and sweet summary of my life from age
Often, finding the courage to schedule an appointment is harder than the therapy session itself. I admit I was hesitant to write about it because I know it can scare people off. But I have the opportunity to be a voice for others who may not be willing to talk about it. I've learned to disregard people who don't support me, and be hopeful about finding those who will. Check out Anna's story on page 8 to read about the actual, not sigmailized, process of therapy.
6 to 21, filling in the blanks since we had last talked. It felt weird to be spilling my guts to a guy who was still a little faded in my memory. But the great thing about my therapist is he doesn't make it feel like "therapy." It felt like a normal conversation with a close friend, with a bit more interrogation. Talking about my experiences wasn't easy by any means, but I wanted to give myself a chance to move on and stop feeling trapped.
After one hour and 43 minutes, I peeled myself off of Dr. George's enveloping couch. I was about to leave, but not before receiving a giant bear hug from a man who I had barely recognized hours before. "It'll be okay, kid," he said. And for once, I actually thought it would be.
// KELCI SHIPLEY, ASSOCIATE EDITOR
EDITOR// Alex Garrison
ASSOCIATE EDITOR//
Kelci Shipley
Liz Schulte
DESIGNERS // Laura Fisk,
CONTACT // Lundsy Cleek
Ludmila Klimova, Katy Cieszy
HEALTH // Adam Vossen
Leslie Kinsman, Katy Saunders
MANUAL// Emily Johnson,
Ben Sullivan
NOTICE // Mary Henderson,
Abby Olcese, Anna Sobering
NAY // Bethany
**NOTICE** // Mary Henderson,
Abby Olcese, Anna Sobering
**PLAY** // Beth Beavers.
CONTRIBUTORS//
**PLAY** // Beth Beavers,
Taylor Brown, Katha Nathagnarath
CREATIVE CONSULTANT //
Mike Anderson, Jason Charney, Molly Martin, Landon McDonald
Carol Holstead
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